the godforsaken world works in mysterious ways.
12.07.2009 @ 12:05 AM
-.- cant get to blogger again.
ive gotten used to making decisions on the spot.
because its not like i wont change my mind later anyway. id rather regret having done it than having not done it. that... probably applies for homework too. oops.
i mention this, because i completely forgot i signed up for munip. bargh.
-.-
it seriously annoys me when people cant tell that... theyr annoying me. and then they continue annoying me.
its kind of sad really, the whole... blood bond thing, the whole 'im supposed to be filial' and wtv shit. its sad because blood doesnt instantaneously mean you'll get on well. it just means that you will be more tolerant than others towards them, you will be more forgiving. in fact, youre supposed to always forgive.
family is supposed to be the one thing [i mean group of people] who will always be there for you.
but its odd really.
i dont judge my family as family members.
i judge them as people. as any other people i would judge. [yes i judge. -.-]
oh. i got distracted. i wanted to talk about something else. D:
i cant remember what it was. oh well. moving on.
jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai.
not that true in this instance, but applicable in some twisted manner.
phuong quit. he disappeared friday lunch. remained uncontactable until yesterday? or this morning? cited family issues as the reason for quitting so abruptly. which is quite sad. he was the 2nd friendlest staff -.-
the... friendliest one gets stressed out =.=
ah. the worst part of it all is that when they sign on, they dont sign contracts or any copyright blahblahs. so they effectively get nothing.
oh the xin one refers to the sg guys. they arrived today. went for dinner. i had two doughnuts and a banana and a full cup of ... some sweet drink before dinner D: oops. yrs parents are .____.'''' the dad seems quite nice but the mum seems like the uptight sgean. zz.
my dad thought yr was the j1 and yj was the s3 coz of their sizes. haha.
but srsly, a) they were talking in chinese for approx 3/4 of the meal, b) when they were talking in english it was comp stuff :o
my bro just counted staff. if mt or h leaves, he says its game over -.- coz thats the main programmer and the only designer -.-!
haiz. oh he just counted people again. his original team had 6 people. theres only one of the orig team left -.- the other 5 left, one reason or the other. which also means, he only has one programmer who has completed training. :o thats only two programmers including himself. :o ouch.
lets see how yj's coding is like.
meanwhile its been pretty quiet on blogger huh. bo-ring.
forest pig. hahaha ytd was some world food festival. the sg food was such a ripoff -.- completely unauthentic. that meant wild boar i think. haha.
went out w sis mel wl bro dad today. wl is... interesting o.o he has a pierced ear. left. approx a head taller than my sis LOL. they cant really hold hands at full... length. amusing. he seems kindheartedish he bought gum off a random person on the street who was carrying a cute kid. the mum later whacked the kid for 'destroying' a pack of gum. he laughed pretty loudly.
he also bought a random cute stuffed.... thing. not sure what he bought in the end. but interesting. i wanted to buy this... unidentified animal stuffed toy thing, but there was oddly dried glue :X so didnt. but he agreed that it was cute + first thing to catch his eye. it was brown and its head was approx the size of my fist and the bod was like 1/3 of it.
lala. theyr going to the mekong delta tmw. my dads staying here. wonders what hes going to do. i dont like it when they comment on what i do here. its annoying. its not... fun at all, its boring, really. and i dont get a kick out of 'managing' them. because really, what i do is i ask them nicely w a ... slight sense of authority. -.- its not like im directly commanding them or anything. they always seem to make it out to be all sunshine and butterflies. pauses. thats not quite right. er. make it out to be all... feelings-of-power-and-awesomeness.
im really just bored -.-
i dont think ive been challenged intellectually for the past two weeks -.- my only source of ooooo are books. sigh. in which case im blind-reading and just absorbing the storyline. im not really thinking either.
D:
on the bright side, people have been coming to hcmc and bringing me stuff. yay. chocolate :D lols my mum bought my bro another 3 big containers of hello panda in addition to the two i brought here that he finished in a couple of days. lollol.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH. at least now i have some more things to do. but arghhhhhhhhhh!
i really shouldnt be looking forward to tuesday. but i am. :X the thing is, im aware of what im feeling. and i can judge it for what it is [i... assume], its just that awareness/comprehension is not the same as believing and doing.
sigh. watched some other show today. empire of silver. i assumed that since it was chinese, dynasty-based, and had aaron kwok, that there would be fighting. oops major oops. on the other hand, i was thinking during the show and i came to conclusion that warlords was a really good show. LOL. oops.
the show was about.. staying true to whats right? money can always be earned back, but once you fail to live up to your conscience, it will always be a... regret?
mmhm. but i should not be seeking absolution in things like that. as mentioned, two schools of thought. two widely believed schools of thought. its not strange for me to find things that would side w either school. ive weighed everything, i just need to believe in my decision. my mind has decided but my heart isnt really interested.
my bro raised the issue of phuong leaving again. figures someone has cancer. probably a parent.
exhales.
[inhales.]
[continues breathing normally]
oh shuts up -.-
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12.04.2009 @ 10:37 PM
just watched this korean show.
i have no idea what its title is. -.- it has korean and viet blurbs yea. but eng subs :D
anw it was abt a tsunami hitting... korea. wow.
right. it had alot of people dying. but mainly it touched on heroism [d-oh] / sacrifice, rich vs poor [wheres the heart?], and mostly, stupidity and stubbornness.
ok that sounds quite bad. -.-
vaguely cliched but the scenes and everything were shot pretty well so... it was pretty touching i guess. mmm but quite ._. wth inducing too.
anw, had scenes about corporate not-quite-big-bigshots being afraid to evacuate / warn people until it was (too) late, female executive from seoul being a b, fishermen blahblahblah.
-.-
sigh
a) wer lucky to be in sg coz saaaaaaafe.
b) so what are u going to do w ur luckkkkkkkk
c) whyyyyyyyyy. whats importaaaant?!
sigh. there was this guy in the show who was basically a gd for nth, whose mum didnt go on a picnic bus but instead went to buy him shoes so that he would attend an interview and thus died. anw the guy was trying to smoke on a bridge. where alot of things had collapsed on. including other vehicles, containers from a container ship. the flame from his lighter was huge, he was startled so he flung it.
the fuel from the container ship caught it. boooom. and more vehicles more booooms. -.- the explosion also flung more containers into buildings.
-.- he later received some honorary citizenship award for saving 13 people. -.-
arghbish.
fighter paper planes!! i had a pp that wouldnt fly. i figured it was too hour glassy shaped so i folded it one more time. and now its awesome. WAHAHAHAHA.
zzzz. i just want to go sleep.
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I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEP.
12.03.2009 @ 2:36 PM
there was this guy called xinfan at iggy.
it took me damn long to place his face with the name because everyone was calling him zin. -.- and because i can actually pronounce xin it sounds very different yea.
anw point is, he has a 10yo brother.
whos a math prodigy, yi fan.
asdf. hes taking his a lvl math at 10.
faints.
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12.01.2009 @ 10:06 PM
its such a pretty moon tonight.
such clear skies.
meteorwatching would have been brilliant on a night like this, with a sky like this.
its feel like its been such a long time since my last... worth-reading post before the latest one.
i looked through my posts and realised it was 9/11. haha but the other way of formatting -> nov 9th.
not that long ago really. but it feels that long ago.
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damn right it's murky, murphy.
@ 9:58 PM
see. my mum also emphasizes that the crowd you mix with is very important.
if no one has a drive, and they make you feel like there isnt a need for a drive, you're pretty much screwed.
"most of the time, wasting it all is really just that - a waste. but forcing it done when it's too late will just make you sick and extremely unhappy. so i live the kind of life where i don't have to go to the extreme, somewhere in between is fine with me. sometimes it's fun to mess up the lines."
i like to use that thinking for food. if you force yourself to finish your food, its just going to make you feel unhappily bloated. i mean, its not like the food is ever going to reach those starving children in africa right?
you've already bought and placed it on your plate. ._.
or cooked it. whatever.
somewhere in between, kai? working 9-5, mon to fri, a pleasant, comfortable 7,000 / month at 40?
is that where you see yourself?
that feels like the more successful less idealistic version of my sis. but the core principles remain the same.
i cant carry on with this. not with that discussion on twitter -.-
twits.
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@ 9:35 PM
i have one grandparent left.
the other grandma died before i was born.
my maternal grandpa died when i was ten.
my paternal grandpa died when i was 13.
i never really spent much time with them. including the one alive.
my paternal grandpa was closest to my brother, his only grandson and his eldest grandchild.
my maternal grandpa... probably my sis. i know he used to shower gifts on her. not too sure if he was really close to any particular grandchild. most of my cousins on my mum's side are way young.
my maternal grandpa is probably closest to my uncle and his kids. she lives with them afterall.
at 17, my bro was managing 7k of his 'own'. ie savings dredged up from gkw. he made a couple of thousand bringing it up to about 10k, and then lost half. he made it back.
the year later, i was paged out of school by my parents. my paternal grandpa refused to eat until a male nurse was requested to masquerade as my bro. the real one, was having an university entrance interview.
yesterday, i learnt he inherited 20k for his college funds.
he invested it and his portfolio swelled.
i guess that solves the matter of his bank balance.
i also raised this, because im not really interested in stocks. if they choose to hand me money to play with, by all means go ahead. dont -king guilt trip me for a decision you're making.
when you treat money like it doesn't matter, i dont treat your money like it matters either.
because, no i dont see this as an investment in me. i see it as an unnecessary form of trying to make me fit the mold.
no, i dont appreciate it.
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white xmas *
@ 11:34 AM
vaguely amused. you know how fb has all those.. six degree, snowball effect, etc groups / experiments?
i take delight in the fact that by ignoring those invites, i have effectively killed them :D
so mean but :D :D
wow i actually spent my morning doing work. except its only been like 2hours worth -.-
yay i finally have scotch tape -> i can finally wrap my books -> i can finally READ THEM.
ok wtv im being ocd kay ^^
in other news, i need to improve my handwriting on whiteboards -.-
hohum. bored again.
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